Dialogue with Fellow Potentiators

Sol October 14, 2020 at 12:12pm

Thanks so much for sharing, Paula! So glad this work has benefited you! :-)

Paula O said:

Wow! Alicia, Thanks so much for your candid reply. Sounds like lots of good stuff happening. There are times when I have wanted to share, but like you couldn’t quite find the words or didn’t want to scare others with the depths of the discomfort that has come forth for healing. Acknowledging growth in all it’s forms is important and can be tricky to articulate. Your word “interesting” is a great way to view all of this. I would also add the word awesome. I am in awe of all of it, and so grateful for Regenetics for providing both a catalyst to accelerate my growth and a framework to observe it through.

Paula O October 12, 2020 at 9:26am

Wow! Alicia, Thanks so much for your candid reply. Sounds like lots of good stuff happening. There are times when I have wanted to share, but like you couldn’t quite find the words or didn’t want to scare others with the depths of the discomfort that has come forth for healing. Acknowledging growth in all it’s forms is important and can be tricky to articulate. Your word “interesting” is a great way to view all of this. I would also add the word awesome. I am in awe of all of it, and so grateful for Regenetics for providing both a catalyst to accelerate my growth and a framework to observe it through.

Alicia Grimaldi said:

Good morning Nichole,

Thank you for asking. I don't come to the forum very often anymore, because it can be challenging to articulate all that has happened. I believe there are no mistakes and those who find themselves faced with the opportunity for Potentiation have purposely found there way here. It is not a journey for the faint of heart, but for those who want to expand their heart and be the best version of themselves. When I ventured on this journey, I had no idea what that truly meant. Potentiation has changed me, hastened my evolution but not always as quick as one may like because the pain can be unbearable at times. I have learned to stop and be with the discomfort. As a person who felt evolved, connected, a love filled light, I have experienced darkness to the depth of my soul. It is like going to the center of the universe feeling the dark, depths of loneliness and despair, but as these pieces come to the surface, breaking off, ultimately returning to the light I do feel periods of clarity, old patterns released, insights beyond words, and unity conscious like never before. It has been challenging as some of my old ways that I was particularly comfortable with are no longer a part of me. In particular, blissful ignorance instead an overwhelming need to be in my truth and to speak up against the wrong doings in the world. Also, the level of codependency in my life, the awareness of how it originated and how I am not in control and that others have their own journey and work to do. I have learned to be rather than do. This is still evolving as I desire to be do in a state of being. I trust that will come in time. I have had digestive issues for most of my life resulting in the inability to hold on to my body fat, however I have put on weight and am able to tolerate things I had not been able to previously. It can be very lonely though my dearest friend is on the journey with me, so I have been able to talk with her when I just wasn't sure if I would pull through the intensity of the emotions. Yes, you will always come through. You always must remember, there is light on the other side. I do find with potentiation though it may be days. It really is much quicker of a process than years of therapy but you do need to be able to get comfortable being with yourself, sitting with yourself. Some days insights come in so fast. It is like a movie screen at high speed and I am not always able to rewind and review. I have been able to be ok with that too. If I am unable to recall the insight, that is ok too. In those moments I realize the work has been accomplished and there is no need for me to see that insight again, trusting it is all ok. I struggle with journaling though I can see how it can be helpful for some. One of the things that was really hard for me was never using the words hate or choosing hate in any way, however during the stages of regenetics, I have hated. Noting judging this, not taking it as a criticism of myself but instead knowing that this is a feeling experienced, circumstances that I have encountered eliciting this response from a deep cellular level, allows one to let it go returning to the light. I often find myself saying, "Interesting," because it is all so very interesting. I have recently started the songs. I started with reproduction. During this time, I have experienced intense mood swings, feelings of unworthiness and self loathing. Being able to sit with it, witness, without judgement and intention for my healing makes all the difference. I hope this is helpful. Please know you are not alone and you can always reach out. I am honored to support anyone who needs it as they go through this process. During the darkest times, Remember the light is right there too - it's in YOU.

Sol October 5, 2020 at 12:35pm

Thanks you for so be willing to share some much honesty and insight, Alicia! Your story is so compelling. I'm pleased to hear that you feel this work has been beneficial, if difficult. :-)

I know for many who have a lot of "stored karma" or whatever you wish to call it, Potentiation and Regenetics can indeed be a challenging journey. They certainly were for me at times.

Many, many others, however, seem to breeze through this process, moving constantly "onward and upward."

So it helps to stay open and not pre-program this experience, which is nothing if not highly individualized ...

Alicia Grimaldi said:

Good morning Nichole,

Thank you for asking. I don't come to the forum very often anymore, because it can be challenging to articulate all that has happened. I believe there are no mistakes and those who find themselves faced with the opportunity for Potentiation have purposely found there way here. It is not a journey for the faint of heart, but for those who want to expand their heart and be the best version of themselves. When I ventured on this journey, I had no idea what that truly meant. Potentiation has changed me, hastened my evolution but not always as quick as one may like because the pain can be unbearable at times. I have learned to stop and be with the discomfort. As a person who felt evolved, connected, a love filled light, I have experienced darkness to the depth of my soul. It is like going to the center of the universe feeling the dark, depths of loneliness and despair, but as these pieces come to the surface, breaking off, ultimately returning to the light I do feel periods of clarity, old patterns released, insights beyond words, and unity conscious like never before. It has been challenging as some of my old ways that I was particularly comfortable with are no longer a part of me. In particular, blissful ignorance instead an overwhelming need to be in my truth and to speak up against the wrong doings in the world. Also, the level of codependency in my life, the awareness of how it originated and how I am not in control and that others have their own journey and work to do. I have learned to be rather than do. This is still evolving as I desire to be do in a state of being. I trust that will come in time. I have had digestive issues for most of my life resulting in the inability to hold on to my body fat, however I have put on weight and am able to tolerate things I had not been able to previously. It can be very lonely though my dearest friend is on the journey with me, so I have been able to talk with her when I just wasn't sure if I would pull through the intensity of the emotions. Yes, you will always come through. You always must remember, there is light on the other side. I do find with potentiation though it may be days. It really is much quicker of a process than years of therapy but you do need to be able to get comfortable being with yourself, sitting with yourself. Some days insights come in so fast. It is like a movie screen at high speed and I am not always able to rewind and review. I have been able to be ok with that too. If I am unable to recall the insight, that is ok too. In those moments I realize the work has been accomplished and there is no need for me to see that insight again, trusting it is all ok. I struggle with journaling though I can see how it can be helpful for some. One of the things that was really hard for me was never using the words hate or choosing hate in any way, however during the stages of regenetics, I have hated. Noting judging this, not taking it as a criticism of myself but instead knowing that this is a feeling experienced, circumstances that I have encountered eliciting this response from a deep cellular level, allows one to let it go returning to the light. I often find myself saying, "Interesting," because it is all so very interesting. I have recently started the songs. I started with reproduction. During this time, I have experienced intense mood swings, feelings of unworthiness and self loathing. Being able to sit with it, witness, without judgement and intention for my healing makes all the difference. I hope this is helpful. Please know you are not alone and you can always reach out. I am honored to support anyone who needs it as they go through this process. During the darkest times, Remember the light is right there too - it's in YOU.

Alicia Grimaldi October 4, 2020 at 6:40am

Good morning Nichole,

Thank you for asking. I don't come to the forum very often anymore, because it can be challenging to articulate all that has happened. I believe there are no mistakes and those who find themselves faced with the opportunity for Potentiation have purposely found there way here. It is not a journey for the faint of heart, but for those who want to expand their heart and be the best version of themselves. When I ventured on this journey, I had no idea what that truly meant. Potentiation has changed me, hastened my evolution but not always as quick as one may like because the pain can be unbearable at times. I have learned to stop and be with the discomfort. As a person who felt evolved, connected, a love filled light, I have experienced darkness to the depth of my soul. It is like going to the center of the universe feeling the dark, depths of loneliness and despair, but as these pieces come to the surface, breaking off, ultimately returning to the light I do feel periods of clarity, old patterns released, insights beyond words, and unity conscious like never before. It has been challenging as some of my old ways that I was particularly comfortable with are no longer a part of me. In particular, blissful ignorance instead an overwhelming need to be in my truth and to speak up against the wrong doings in the world. Also, the level of codependency in my life, the awareness of how it originated and how I am not in control and that others have their own journey and work to do. I have learned to be rather than do. This is still evolving as I desire to be do in a state of being. I trust that will come in time. I have had digestive issues for most of my life resulting in the inability to hold on to my body fat, however I have put on weight and am able to tolerate things I had not been able to previously. It can be very lonely though my dearest friend is on the journey with me, so I have been able to talk with her when I just wasn't sure if I would pull through the intensity of the emotions. Yes, you will always come through. You always must remember, there is light on the other side. I do find with potentiation though it may be days. It really is much quicker of a process than years of therapy but you do need to be able to get comfortable being with yourself, sitting with yourself. Some days insights come in so fast. It is like a movie screen at high speed and I am not always able to rewind and review. I have been able to be ok with that too. If I am unable to recall the insight, that is ok too. In those moments I realize the work has been accomplished and there is no need for me to see that insight again, trusting it is all ok. I struggle with journaling though I can see how it can be helpful for some. One of the things that was really hard for me was never using the words hate or choosing hate in any way, however during the stages of regenetics, I have hated. Noting judging this, not taking it as a criticism of myself but instead knowing that this is a feeling experienced, circumstances that I have encountered eliciting this response from a deep cellular level, allows one to let it go returning to the light. I often find myself saying, "Interesting," because it is all so very interesting. I have recently started the songs. I started with reproduction. During this time, I have experienced intense mood swings, feelings of unworthiness and self loathing. Being able to sit with it, witness, without judgement and intention for my healing makes all the difference. I hope this is helpful. Please know you are not alone and you can always reach out. I am honored to support anyone who needs it as they go through this process. During the darkest times, Remember the light is right there too - it's in YOU.

Nichole Wall September 29, 2020 at 5:49am

It's been a year...how are you doing Alicia? How did your journey go?

Alicia Grimaldi said:

Thank you Nathan for your loving response. I have always considered myself a light, compassionate, so love filled. Sitting with these dark emotions, not judging them, I am trusting they are being released on the deepest level. I feel so flat lined, like I am just floating, going through the motions day to day. My heart has never hurt like this before. I am trusting my heart will stop hurting and will once again feel light and love filled in an even deeper way. Namaste

Sol July 8, 2019 at 10:14am

Thanks for chiming in, Nathan. All good stuff (in the end)! :-)

Nathan Lamont Cloud JR said:

Alicia how are you beautiful soul it is so great to hear from you again. Let me first share that this work, is profound, it is hard, it is love, it is joy, it is compassion, it is you. Indeed all of our journeys are different and unique which makes it that much more special. I love your bravery in sharing with family your trials and tribulations within this work. I commend you for being you and undergoing this journey with an honesty that is admirable. I will share with you my unique experience and perspective until Sol/Leigh bring in there own wisdom as well as any other family members on here that may feel call to share. Last month I finished my first 3 songs of distinction (Digestive, Brain, Oral) all back to back and this month should be staring the Reproductive organs reset. This has been a very difficult emotional time as much came up that was dark. The oral organ is associated with the fragmentary body which to me is karma/ancestral. It became so difficult and frequent I had to stop judging the emotions and simply thank them for showing me what needs to be cleared/healed and forgiven. I have so much more compassion as a result of going through these experiences/emotions, it is what makes me human. The ability to experience the full spectrum of emotions and then transcend them is a divine gift. It is so special, this work is so delicate yet fascinating and tantalizing, for me it has been in sitting with this deep dark emotions and not running from them(via distractions) is where I have gotten my best insight and answers. This has been my experience dear friend. I love where you are right now, it is exactly where you need to be, I cannot wait to read your post on what it taught you and what you learned, when you get your ah ha moment. Until then I root for you in deep love. It is my intent that this post, informs you that you are not alone, you are so supported and loved here and all over. The work you are doing to help this planet and yourself is divine. I salute the divinity in you my dear sister Namaste!

Sol July 8, 2019 at 10:12am

Sorry for the delay in responding; I've been out of pocket over the Fourth.

In any case it certainly sounds as if you're "shedding." I recall similar moments/phases in my own Regenetics process and have fielded similar feedback from many, many others.

Articulation in particular often brings about a "third-person effect," where suddenly we find ourselves watching the "movie" of our lives as if we were spectators of it.

I think of this as important mental distancing (remember that we're working on the mental subtle body here) that allows us to see how we've been and are--and also to chart a way forward toward what we wish to be.

Hope that helps a little! :-)

Alicia Grimaldi said:

Good morning fellow Potentiators,

I am in the charging of 4 and have done Articulation. I have been wanting to write, but my thoughts have been all over the place and I don't know where to begin. One of the things I have realized doing this work is the way I have been is not who I am. It has been hard to swallow and initially I did many comparisons from then to now. I used techniques for a way of being and moving forward on this planet. Most of the time, I was doing and always with the intention for the highest good, but I had my lows for short periods of time as I was in a place that was out of alignment with me or was just not sustainable. What I realized was to move forward I would get angry or use alcohol to propel me from what I didn't want. This is no longer an option. I am still trying to claim my worthiness, however I find myself in a place that is withdrawn, with little desire and not really wanting to do anything. I use to always want to be in a state of doing; helping, cleaning, working. I find myself super still, flat without emotion unless it is sadness and I will cry at witnessing something sad (in the past I might of cried but acknowledged it was part of the plan ) and the feelings are just heart wrenching. Most of the time my heart feels sad. The things I once knew to be true, like being in a state of gratitude now feels flat. It is harder to meditate as my minds is going, going, going. I feel very seperate from the whole where as before I felt more of the Oneness. I am wondering is this just part of the shedding. When feeling lack of joy, I have sought out healers etc and worked on my practices and faith. Recently, I thought how about a retreat? I searched and found a retreat. I spoke with one of the Angel guides and she told me I was so far ahead of others, I was complex, but I didn't really need a retreat. I know it is my worthiness and fears that are holding me back and lack of desire. I want to be doing while in a state of being, in service, in the name of unity consciousness, but I feel lost. Any thoughts? Thank you so much for your time, consideration, and love. I know this work has brought me to a new way of being. I love not being quick to anger, things that triggered me no longer do, but there are new triggers that are being healed. It is very profound work and I am grateful to Leigh and Sol and all of you <3

Nathan Lamont Cloud JR July 6, 2019 at 10:22am

You are very welcome sis! You are indeed this things and more... :) I love you trusting in yourself and listening too. I was lucky enough to chat with another sister of mine on her and we were sharing some dark moments and she brought up a wonderful metaphor of her birthing two of her kids. How she went through quite a bit of uncomfortable emotions and situations but in the end it was so worth it. I love this remarkable insight she shared. Although I have not had any kids, I believe this is what we are doing, we are birthing a new type of human that is so desperately needed in this world today. DNA is a master of transformation and one thing I remember in my Articulation experience is that many of limited beliefs (in the mental body) were altered. I experienced much that altered what I then perceived was possible and when that happen my confidence grew. It was and still is one of my favorites(although it was not easy) to experience as it was then I started to see what was possible, which is anything! So congratulations sis and thank you so much for sharing with us..

Alicia Grimaldi July 6, 2019 at 5:56am

Thank you Nathan for your loving response. I have always considered myself a light, compassionate, so love filled. Sitting with these dark emotions, not judging them, I am trusting they are being released on the deepest level. I feel so flat lined, like I am just floating, going through the motions day to day. My heart has never hurt like this before. I am trusting my heart will stop hurting and will once again feel light and love filled in an even deeper way. Namaste

Nathan Lamont Cloud JR July 4, 2019 at 12:01pm

Alicia how are you beautiful soul it is so great to hear from you again. Let me first share that this work, is profound, it is hard, it is love, it is joy, it is compassion, it is you. Indeed all of our journeys are different and unique which makes it that much more special. I love your bravery in sharing with family your trials and tribulations within this work. I commend you for being you and undergoing this journey with an honesty that is admirable. I will share with you my unique experience and perspective until Sol/Leigh bring in there own wisdom as well as any other family members on here that may feel call to share. Last month I finished my first 3 songs of distinction (Digestive, Brain, Oral) all back to back and this month should be staring the Reproductive organs reset. This has been a very difficult emotional time as much came up that was dark. The oral organ is associated with the fragmentary body which to me is karma/ancestral. It became so difficult and frequent I had to stop judging the emotions and simply thank them for showing me what needs to be cleared/healed and forgiven. I have so much more compassion as a result of going through these experiences/emotions, it is what makes me human. The ability to experience the full spectrum of emotions and then transcend them is a divine gift. It is so special, this work is so delicate yet fascinating and tantalizing, for me it has been in sitting with this deep dark emotions and not running from them(via distractions) is where I have gotten my best insight and answers. This has been my experience dear friend. I love where you are right now, it is exactly where you need to be, I cannot wait to read your post on what it taught you and what you learned, when you get your ah ha moment. Until then I root for you in deep love. It is my intent that this post, informs you that you are not alone, you are so supported and loved here and all over. The work you are doing to help this planet and yourself is divine. I salute the divinity in you my dear sister Namaste!

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