I'm on day 6 of 7 up and today was a whopper of several uncomfortable and intense emotions. I read that this bioenergy center contains the emotions of: apathy, despair, disappointment, discouragement, disillusionment, frustration, helplessness, hopelessness, lack of faith and stress. I felt ALL of them! And it was awful. Especially, since I've had some dips in my income as a freelancer and I support a family of three. I felt like I wanted to explode, freak out and cry today. This isn't my normal temperament and I typically bounce back. I keep reminding myself that there's one more day of 7 up and then I have a week to go before sealing.
When I have set backs, I've felt upset and discouraged before but this has been intense. I found myself feeling restless and wanting to do anything from cleaning, to working out as a way to discharge some of the negative energy. I have a sonic slider from Eileen McKusick that I use twice a day and thank God for this tool which helps me calm down.
I've studied writing in the past and haven't been writing much the past two to three years and have felt a strong desire to pick up my pen (rather laptop) and begin working on some pieces I've written a while ago that need polishing and begin to submit them again. I have a very strong creative background in both dance, acting, and writing and my current profession doesn't use those skills so I'm following this feeling and want to start submitting queries again to magazines for some writing assignments to see what happens.
My daughter's best friend's father is a well known editor for the NY Times and when I asked him for a critique on an essay I wrote, he was very complimentary which made me feel very good considering he's a pro and I haven't published much. I took it as a positive sign coming from an editor to work on it some more using his suggestions to bring it up to speed. He said it has the potential to be a very compelling piece but needs some work in a few specific places which I know how to fix.
When I write, I feel like I'm in the zone and it's a wonderful space to be in. I love getting all my ideas out on the page and then like a puzzle doing re-writes to bring everything into a coherent piece of writing that flows, grabs the reader and takes them on a journey they'll remember.
I would like to have paid creative opportunities in my career for writing. I know from reading all the blogs posts and both books by Sol that career changes are common when going through Potentiation and the other activations.
I went off on a tangent, but would like to know if anyone else has experienced such intense emotions in 7 up and career changes. Thank you!
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Right on. Much appreciated!
Sharon Michelle Jackson said:
Thank You Sol. I'll make sure to be aware of not posting an identical thread. Sorry about that.
What you describe is rather common, Sharon, especially in people who, deep down, are truly ready for a change. I tend to think of the sort of discomfort felt around such situations as "birthing pains."
The good news is that the surfacing of such emotions and thoughts often indicates that substantial change is on the horizon, so hang in there--and be willing to follow your nose! :-)
On a technical note, please be aware that you keep posting identical threads twice in a row, which means I have to go in and delete one each time. :-)